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I was today years old when I learned that in the picture in my corridor there is a meaning, deeper than I thought it would. I hanged this picture there because I liked the thougt of it.
Today I dreamed again. Very long and intricate dreams that left me wondering and amazed. Again, things were going downwards in my dreams. Down in to caves. There are always sequences like that. Things crashing down, sometimes I jump down, sometimes there is just a need to go somewhere down. Today was like that again. Two times in this dream was I exploring caves. Under water, where no light shines.
And then I stood in front of that image in my corridor. It hangs behind the stairs that lead up to my second floor. I was standing there, something catching my eyes. I talked in my mind to someone: ‚Do you see it?‘ ‚No, what?‘ ‚The deeper meaning. It’s not in the image. And it’s not in the reflection. It’s inbetween.‘
The stairs get caught in the reflection of the image. Leading to a place that’s dark or unknown, even in the image. Reflecting all of what my dreams and analysis are telling me all the time. Manifested, even in the physical world, right in front of me.

There is a place.
A place where darkness ends, and trueness shines.
Most people will never see it.
Most will never experience the light it can bring.
But I want to.

It will be my answer, my next goal and much more, all in one. But at the same time, it’s only a very small dot. But a dot with that much gravity that I keep circling around it.
Maybe it wants me to build enough mass, enough stability. Because if that dot of intense gravity vanishes, I will get catapulted into empty space. Where nothing familiar is waiting for me. The darkness I am circling around, is my ally for as long as I can think.
I thought it were my enemy. I gave it countless names. But I didn’t understood the greater image. It was never against me. It is holding something for me. A valuable lesson, which it will teach me, when I am ready. Probably in a time where I expect it the least.

Where will I be going if the dot vanishes? I think I will be very fast. But there will be no seatbelt. I have respect for this journey. So…

Let there be peace, little dot.

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